There are things in the world that a person has to learn and wants to learn, but the having to and wanting to, are totally different.

Personally I believe myself to be an open minded, non-judgmental person, who will try new things at my own convince, but when it comes to having to do something because it is required, the thirteen year old girl with way to much attitude comes out and the wining seeps through.

Unfortunately, computers are the culprit for me. Since I was younger, I have tried to stay away from technology as much as possible because I was convinced I was rebel, a rebel without a cause no doubt but a rebel all the same. I didn’t want to follow trends and do what everyone else was doing, but now of course I feel that being connected with the web is inevitable and my lack of knowledge has come back and bit me.

I feel as though the internet is an invasion of privacy at times, a pest that calls my attention more then I would like and when there are glitches, I totally loose my cool. I think to myself “if technology is so high and mighty then it should always work,” but of course nothing is perfect.

Today, I am taking the “internet/compuers/web design for dummies” road to learning what I need to for my future, but it is not easy. Don’t judge me, the only reason I lack in the ability to comprehend the technical skill is because for so long I have chosen not to comprehend it, it was my choice and now I must pay. But don’t get me wrong, I am skilled at a lot of other things, like music and swimming, but the bottom line is that people who have trouble with understanding new things is; first because its new, second because they don’t feel or see the importance of learning such a skill.